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Resolutions

2009 New Year Resolutions
1. Have no new year resolutions for 2010
2. Get in shape; this includes losing some weight and having a regular exercise schedule.
3. Take a photo of myself everyday, like the idea i brainstormed with my mom months ago not the whole 365 portraiture made popular through the tumblr.
4. Try to ease off the bitterness as made obvious in #3.
5. Learn how to use my NikonD40.
6. Sew some of my own clothes.
7. Take singing lessons.
8. Learn how to play guitar.
9. Spit out at least one piece of art a week.
10. Limit myself to one hair dye and one peanut butter and jelly sandwich every three months.
11. Actually put money into my savings account.
12. Read a book a week, at least.
13. Document all bakery ideas.
14. Love and embrace myself and my life.

These go into effect on 1/4/09, I’m currently on vacation.

i hate paypal!

samdesantis:

charlavail:

samdesantis:

I’m so close to buying a remote! I found one for 15 bucks with free shipping

but now i have to wait for paypal to verify my bank account. 

urghgghghghghgh. 

I’ve been waiting on my money to transfer from my bank account to Paypal for 5 days. SO annoying.

WHAT! five days is wwwwwway too long.

 and uh, totally thought i was foollowing you!? haha

i hate paypal!

samdesantis:

I’m so close to buying a remote! I found one for 15 bucks with free shipping

but now i have to wait for paypal to verify my bank account. 

urghgghghghghgh. 

It’s 4:43 p.m. Christmas day. I was just looking at Heather’s tumblr and wishing we’d learn how to do fishbraids together, that one of the friendship bracelets was made for me, that we still talked. Last night I was talking about Heather to Zac. I asked him if he noticed how I don’t cry anymore, if he noticed that since I’ve convinced myself I “don’t like Heather” how much better I’ve been. I haven’t cried about her in weeks, I’ve been doing wonderful. And then I was leaving the pediatrics center of the hospital and half way to my car my eyes watered up. I saw somebody the other day that I went to high school with, someone I haven’t seen since graduation. When he asked me what I’ve been doing the past two years I wanted to say I’ve been watching my best friend deteriorate. Before my eyes. Halloween day 2007 I met Heather for Tomorrow and it was love at second sight. This rambunctious creative 14 year old ball of energy. Zac said him and Harry ruined Heather and I’s friendship and I tried to convince him it wasn’t them. Lack of face time is what has ruined us, which is partly due to Harry but mostly school. All Harry and Zac know of Heather and I is what they’ve seen since we’ve been going over there, which is awful. Zac said, I don’t know what you guys were like before. I said, fucking awesome. We were the best best friends. I tried explaining to him how before August we would spend endless amounts of time together not doing anything. Enjoying each others company, talking and laughing and brainstorming all day every day. I told him, I know what you guys have seen of us hasn’t been pretty but before, before we were beautiful. I let him know that despite how it seems, Heather and I’s friendship isn’t over nor on its way there. It’s just a break. This isn’t the type of friendship that fades away. We’ll shine again, all in due time. There’s no way I’m letting her out of my sight. We still have a stop motion film to make and a tree house to build and red carpets to walk arm and arm.